Wrapped in a scarf.

2005-12-16 - 7:36 p.m.

Yeah I haven't been writing have I? I seem to have entirely abandoned my paper diary as well. Life has been great but BUSY, and when I haven't been busy I haven't felt like doing anything, because I'm tired.

I'm back at home now. It was strange waking up in my old bed yesterday morning. In my half-asleep state, memories of the past term running through my head, it all took on a dream-like quality. Everything here is so instantly familiar, Durham a million miles away.

I've adjusted to the surreality of inhabiting two worlds since then… though I am obsessed with university friends/anecdotes. I think I keep talking about them just to keep them real.

This past term I have grown sick of college food, danced a lot, put various forms of vegetation on a bonfire, stayed up till the early hours writing an essay, spent far too much time thinking about bins, got so drunk that I drank water and cried (while wearing a santa hat), then sobered up in time to see all my friends throw up… In terms of men I have… been harassed by a drunk and desperate young man (I literally had to yell at him to make him go away. I guess he likes 'difficult' girls? :-D)… stopped fancying Twig because he has a girlfriend… Pulled a guy in a club for the first time ever … Had a sweet but short-lived dating spree with him, but he doesn't want a relationship (damn), even though he seemed all set to commit a multitude of sins with me… was subsequently wrapped in blankets and comforted by two sweet friends while singing along to Karma Police….

I've collected a wonderful group of oddball friends around me, a couple of them I think are my platonic soulmates. My 19th birthday was awesome. They baked me a cake despite the fact that our college has no cooking facilities– it involved the use of a prohibited oven at risk of setting off the fire alarm. They also gave me flowers, a helium balloon, chocolates, and a chess set. And a giant card with obligatory Embarrassing Photos on it. I was suitably touched/impressed.

Uni has been everything I hoped it would be, but it's wonderful to be back. So relaxing, like sinking into a hot bath. Possibly a bit *too* relaxing. I can't forget that I have stuffs to do this Christmas.

This is Nice though. I think I've wanted my life to be like this for a long time. Of course there's always more to wish for, I have a rather obstinate desire for romance that remains unfulfilled. But still. *smiiiiiiiiiile*

~T.

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